Dedicated to my Wilson Peeps

So with this little chain of Blogs I feel like I should jump on the train and we shall see how long this lasts. I feel like this a good way to keep up with each others lives and me being the furthest away; sometimes I feel a little more distant and out of touch with the Wilson crew. I think partly b/c I’m so wrapped up with things going on here, I sometimes don’t have time but I am putting forth the effort to change that and to make time, even if it’s just a short phone call just to say hello.

First of all, I would like to say thank each of you for being a part of my life. We’ve all known each other for a really long time and I’m glad we have stayed friends. We’ve all had ups and downs, petty fights, people change, personalities clash…but I hope we can all appreciate the fact that we are all different and I think that’s what makes us have this incredible bond that we do. A few weeks ago when I went to surprise you guys, I have to be honest. I was definitely nervous…Sometimes when we get together things can be tense depending on what’s going on at that time and we all have such strong personalities and opinions…it just isn’t as fun as I expect it to be. But a few weeks ago, I have to say…I’ve had one of the best times with you guys that I think I ever had. It was good to just sit around the table and everyone spill everything that was on their mind and going on with their lives. It was good to joke around and act ridiculous. We are all at different places in our lives and it’s good to get a different perspective about a certain situation we are going through. Not many people can say I still have 5 best friends that I’ve known since my childhood and I know they would be there and drop everything they were doing the second I needed them and vice versa. I am so incredibly thankful and I appreciate everyone of you from the bottom of my heart and I hope you know that.

So…what’s going on with my life? Well, the past few years have definitely been a roller coaster for me. I have gone from being in a 2.5 year relationship that I thought was going to last forever….to making the decision to move to charlotte without a job, to finding a great opportunity and job I never thought I would have, to losing my mother who was my best friend, my inspiration and who helped shaped me into the person I am today. And now here I am, trying to live life to the fullest and to not miss anything that comes my way.

This week I am planning a baby shower for my dear friend Felicia. I have a pretty busy week ahead and I like to procrastinate sometimes and so I will be running around Friday night probably looking like a chicken with my head cut off. Also, I am attempting a little baking which is scary b/c I think the only thing I’ve ever baked in my life are cookies that are already pre-made…yes sad I know…I’m going to be a horrible housewife! Felicia has asked me to be her labor coach and when she asked me I was so honored that she thinks so highly of me and trusts me to be in there with her. I am excited about it and I think it will be a great experience. She is 2cm dilated right now so doc said it could be today, a day from now or two weeks. I have my bag packed and ready to go…oh yeah and of course my camera is fully charged, locked, and loaded.

There’s not much to say about my job. My company is going well, at least a lot better than some in this economy and the world we live in today. So I feel pretty secure but one can never tell. I do enjoy my job…when I try to explain what I do to strangers they just look at me with this puzzled face…I think I kind of like it that way. I have learned a lot in the past couple years and I have had some great mentors along the way.

As most of you know, I do have a certain someone that I’ve been spending time with lately. It has taken me almost 2 years to get to the point where I feel I am capable of being in a relationship again and letting my guard down. And I am finally letting go completely of the past and the things I’ve tried to hold onto for so long. I think sometimes it takes finding another person that appreciates you for the person you really are and who just fits into your life kind of like a key fits into a lock just perfectly to realize what you have been missing all along. We are not rushing into anything right now, just taking things slow and seeing where it takes us. I think this could be the start of something amazing and I am excited yet scared at the same time, so I guess we will see where it takes me.

I apologize the first one was so long…I guess I had a lot to get off my chest and we all know my writing skills are much better than my ability to communicate with words and expressing how I feel. Love you all, hope you have a wonderful day!

~Ash