Grandmother's Passing

So it’s been a while since I’ve written. It’s been a crazy and emotionally draining last couple of weeks, that’s for sure. My closest grandparent passed away on August 12th of this month. My grandmother was pretty much like another mother to me. She lived with my family for many years while I was growing up and she contributed a big part of me being the person I am today. I don’t think anything can prepare you for such an unexpected and sudden death. Grandma was 73 and she was a fairly healthy woman who was still working as a nurse when she passed away. The last time I saw her was a few weeks ago when I was in town unexpectedly. I had gone up to DC for Christine’s mother’s funeral and I just decided to go home for the rest of the weekend. I stopped in the nursing home that Sunday before I left to go back to Charlotte. I was busy all weekend but I wanted to see her before I left. I remember she introduced me to a few of her co-workers and one of her patients. I never thought in a million years that would be the last time I would see her alive.

She was a wonderful person who cared deeply for her family. My usual way of coping and dealing with things is to preoccupy myself with so many things that I am too busy to think or feel anything. With work, softball, gym, social outings, friends,etc…I know it’s not the healthiest way but I’ve come to the realization that I do it without even knowing I am doing it sometimes. I think I am still in shock and I still can’t believe it happened. This has also made me come to terms with my mother’s death and to bring out a lot that I was holding inside.

Also wanted to thank the ones that called and came to the viewing and funeral. Thanks for your words and for just being there. It means the world to me.